Thursday, May 28, 2015

Praises + Prayers (5/28/15)

As a follow-up to that last update, here are some ways you can pray for me and my family during this time:

Praises
+ Getting to Houston with all the flooding that has been going on was a breeze.
+ I have doctors all over the US that care about me and want to see me continue to live.
+ I have the most supportive and wonderful husband for this journey. He has and continues to be incredible.
+ My parents have been so supportive to allow us to travel to MDA so often.
+ Cancer is not yet in tumor form in my lungs or liver (but it is in the pleural space in the lungs)

Prayers
+ For a miracle. That one of these trial drugs would be the trick and be the kryptonite to my very aggressive flavor of cancer.
+ For wisdom. That God would supernaturally open doors for me to get into the right trial as soon as possible. That God would guide my friend Angela and me to pick out the best options to start pursuing.
+ For strength. Brad and I are emotionally at zero right now. To learn that you will soon be separated (albeit temporarily) from your best friend and from your kids is absolutely heart-breaking. Pray for our broken hearts.
+ For grace. We always said we didn't know how we would face this day, if and when it came, but we said that God would give us grace for in that day and be faithful in that day. Pray that we would have supernatural peace and joy to face the days ahead. Especially as my pain and discomfort quickly increases and my functionality and independence starts to decrease.
+ For my family.  Please pray for Brad, our parents, siblings, and most of all my children. Pray that God would protect my family from the trauma of losing a loved one. Please pray that their hearts would not become bitter to God and that He would strengthen them through this very difficult trial.
+ For courage. Just like I didn't want to waste my cancer, I do not want to waste my death. Pray that God would give me courage to wisely use my remaining time on this earth, no matter how short.

Love you guys so much.

10 comments:

  1. Praying for all the requests you have made. I pray will God will surround you with the peace that only He can give.

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  2. Ashleigh, God knows the things that you and I cannot comprehend. I do not even pretend to understand why this is happening, and I cannot say I would face IBC with such grace and faith as you have.I want to tell you something very personal, and while I will spend every day praying for your miraculous healing, if God chooses to say no, I want to say these things to you. I KNOW-- I know from walking through my son and daughter in love’s cancer journey with them, that God gives each of us what we need to make it through each moment: me, my family, my son Mark, his wife Morgan. You and your precious family. God provided the amount of grace and peace, patience and comfort, and yes even miracles to meet our need moment by moment as we walked with Morgan through her last days. I’m not saying we didn’t haves times of pain, of anger, of frustration and intense grieving. We cannot love deeply without grieving deeply. But I am saying God was there. Every. Single. Moment. And so it will be with you. You will have what you need every moment until that second when your spirit leaves this earth and you are face to face with Jesus in Heaven. And while we will grieve that you are not in this earthly realm anymore, what a glorious arrival that will be!
    My pastor told me this story that I hold close to my heart. When we lost our first grandson at age 3 to a drowning accident in a back yard pool, I could not stop fixating on the pain. My pastor said this to me, "Michelle, when you arrive in heaven someday, your little Lance will turn to look at you. And when he sees you he will know you, and he will be happy to see you. He won't say to you, ‘Gramme, where have you been? why did you take so long to get here?’ He won't feel the loneliness of loss as on our broken earth, because God's love is so great and so wonderful, he covers this in heaven. For Lance, our reuniting will be like I had just stepped out of the room, and then returned. My grandson will know me, but will not have experienced the loss of years. And so it will be with you. I will find the scripture to support this, because it does exist. God's love will sustain and cover your husband and children on earth and then again in heaven, where you will one day be reunited as if no time has passed. I am counting on it, and trusting God for your every single breath. I send my love to you, dear girl. It seems like such a small thing to offer. But its all I have. Walk with God always, dear soul.

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  3. So sorry to hear! My thoughts went towards a Mexican clinic and treatments such as hyperthermia or IV DMSO.

    Check out this place:

    http://www.sanoviv.com/

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  4. Praying for all of the above, Ashleigh! I'm so sorry you are facing this

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  5. Ashleigh, I found your blog a few months ago and you have remained on my heart. I will be covering you and your family in prayer - for wisdom and peace and comfort and for joy in the time you spend with each other!

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  6. Tons and tons and tons of prayers and love are being sent. We are here for you. Please let me know if there is anything at all that we can do.

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  7. Love & prayers winging their way from UK

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  8. Candice (Sloan MBA '15)June 1, 2015 at 11:45 PM

    Ashleigh, I have been praying for you and your family since Tim notified SCF almost a year ago about your battle. We are praying for you and are so encouraged by your boldness and faith. We are praying for a miraculous act of healing!

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  10. Prayers for peace and comfort for you and your entire family during this difficult time.

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